http://www.clairesewell.com/

http://www.clairesewell.com/

This website is a culmination of all I know through battling depression, spilling my heart and mind on blank pages, and going deep within to discern what my soul gifts are.

I hope I can be of some light to other soul travelers.

A soul whisper

This morning I heard a soul whisper. You know the ones - a grain of truth that reverberates you to the core with its simplicity.

For the last decade (which, let's face it, is a long time), I've worked my butt off to become a self-employed therapist. I had visions of listening deeply, to the sound of soft background music, being paid to work from home.

Recently however, I concluded that this path is not working for me. I had the realization that I'd rather write about psychology and spirituality than directly practice it.

Today my soul whisper asked this:

"What if ... you had success with writing. Would you still want to be a therapist?"
The quick and resolute answer was: "Writing is my first love."

I see my path more clearly now.

A fine balance between studying and doing

Next semester (July) I begin the somewhat arduous task of completing my Bachelor of Arts degree in Psychology. I have two third-year papers to complete. I am interested in people: their feelings, their difficulties and their successes. But the psychology degree itself has been rather dry and boring - and a lot of tedious essays.

The most inspiring and fun papers I did were some of the electives. I took a Speaking paper. I wanted to prove to myself (and the world) that I could do it. One of the exercises was to stand closely, face to face, with a complete stranger and hold a gaze with their eyes for 3 whole minutes - it seemed like forever. We weren't allowed to talk, smile, fidget or stare. We weren't allowed to be judgmental. We just had to hold the gaze. It was super challenging but oh so rewarding!

Once I have my degree out of the way, I can delve into Media Studies/English papers.

I'm looking at it as I have to eat my veges (Psychology papers) before I can get to the yummy dessert (Media papers).

Part of me wants to be fully immersed in learning new material and becoming more media savvy. But the other part of me realizes that it takes time and energy to write. For me, I need to know that there is nothing else on the horizon, such as uni papers, to interrupt my writing. I'm not sure if I can study AND write at the same time.

On my to-do list is a film script which realistically might take me 2 years to complete, and a non-fiction kindle book on creating a life beyond loss.

Let's see if I can manage it all - in small chunks each. I'm going to try.